LIVING UP TO IT

living up to it is bringing me down.
so much life grieving out loud 
and all the glorious tundra of genius 
wrecking my toes. I misstep…
to a point… I never fathomed.

II

I have long lungs and short breaths.
I come undone effortless.
I do what must be done
regardless…. and soldier on.
but to the sticking place, 
I am gargantuan,
but a clumsy fool
with a fancy
Mind.

III

something in Me has died a lot.
i must Live more
to love as much
and when you can’t…
you rot.

you sleep where the things have no love.
you weep where things have no eyes.
you are sincere
where a sun is a fist.
and you fight
for not so much.
but you Live
It.

IV

love is the wonderful thing that keeps you alive.
and Alive is the terrible thing that keeps you
Dying.