A lonely soul

A wanderer I am and a restless soul I have
Tired by day and awake by night
Looking for a spark that'll light up my life, 
I search for a soul that'll make me feel complete
Because I walk around empty, like a soldier that faced defeat
Everything seems so plain, like a donut that has been glazed 
Where is the excitement that I have once known??
My spirit has been so restless, unpleased with the things I have seen
I'm not happy and it has become even more noticeable 
Walking around happy although I am sad
I think about out my past but my past is what drove me mad 
Nostalgia at it's finest but yet at it's worst 
I walk around alone, i swear it is a curse 
Who will come and relief me of this curse? 
I think about death like it is a normal thing 
It must be more peaceful than this stressful life of mine
Nobody to hold me to tell me it's okay
No kisses no hugs to help me get through the day
My heart is heavy as if it has been weighed down
Weighed down by my emotions I'm happy, sad then mad
Mad at myself for letting things get bad
If my life is now cursed then I ask this curse to take my life
One shouldn't be this lonely a terrible curse it is
Curse I beg you to take my life because I shouldn't live my life like this
Alone and cold I am and now i feel myself breaking
Cracking and shattering like a pond of ice that is breaking
These depressing feelings I ask of you to disperse
If not take my life instead of making it so dreadful
End me quickly i beg of you on my knees
The one that i truly loved has washed her hands with me
She doesn't remember a thing but I do like it has came up to me
One day i wish she will come back because her arms i crave dearly 
I yearn for her kisses like a baby that needs it's mommy
Please come back and be my queen,
On my hands and knees I beg of thee
Come back to my arms i beg you please
You and I both know that is where you should be