losing face

you happy I survived or are you Bex, 
Cos  recently you've shown no interest,
 you  invest,when i'm on my death bed, 
breathing my last breaths,
 Is there no love left,Or is it the case, That so not to lose face, you seem Upset,
We've all done things we regret,
 The past creeps up I bet,
 But we still haven't turned the clock Back yet.
This is as bad as its gonna get.
Lets build a bridge with the time we Have left 
Or end up worlds apart. back at the Start  filled with regret 
No number to text.no home or web Address.
 Cold alone and depressed.
An the rest 
Had to get this of my chest!