Losing faith

When you're at your lowest point, snowed under in hefty debt, that was created to keep your family afloat; You try to keep faith in hopes to keep you from falling apart. but life has other plans, it wants you to not succeed; to continue to relive your daily failures. Depression is an unwanted reminder, that feeds off your failure; defeating this enemy is a dream to conquer. Why is the devil succeeding? suppressing my faith, engulfing every bit of happiness that's at arms reach. Am I truly alone? Why is this so? Have I not been there for others! Lord, Where are you? I know you can see my struggles and hear my daily prayers. Where are you my lord? My tears are held back, they want to fall; however, feel they are too burdensome to be seen. My eyes feel heavy they want to cry but shoulders are few around to lean on. troubledsome heart, the reason to why it has not expressed love; how do you love? if it has not felt love. Sure, an image on the outside can make one love, but this be your image alone that receives all that love. bitter you be when that's all they're after. Lord help me solve this misery inside me, where are you lord? Will i have a happy ever after!