Losing your routine.

Has anyone heard of Ashley?If you haven't, don't stop reading now! I'm about to tell you why you should know her Let'sstart with a really sweet story of her from freshman year from my friend Kiyah. Well You see freshman year Kiyah went to Hudson High School with the rest of us dorks.
See freshman year for her and Ashley was sophomor year for me. My sophomore year was I had a pregnant girlfriend who I cheated on. Not the best year for me morally. I turned into a bully and Kiyah my current best friend, used to be my sole subject of torture. However this bullying had an origin. Ashley and Kiyah were very close back then. Incidentally around the same time, Kiyah had a rough experience with a relative abusing her. This relative had a disease and Kiyah wasn't sure if she would get it. Ashley being her friend, had this vented to her. Her response was to tell everyone she had this disease.This is the thing that I undoubtedly immorally, bullied her for. I'm not going to deny that I did a lot of awful shit that year. But that's for another time. You see, let's flash forward to a little recently. So a couple weeks ago Ashley messaged Kiyah to apologize about everything and Ashley offered to pay for her to go bowling with Ashley and her cousin. They went and the entire time her cousin was flirting with her. She told him no thanks and Ashley told him not to worry about it because Kiyah was a shitty person anyway By the end of the night the weirdo said he was in love with her. When Kiyah said she wasn't interested they told her she had to pay for the food, the gas, and the bowling. She went out being told it would be free but because she didn't wanna have sex with Ashley's cousin she was charged a fee.Pretty shitty, right?Now goes to the last thing I'm gonna talk about.This girl,posted her nudes for her family and friends to see. Kiyah immediately deactivated after posting a short status about it. Kiyah is already going through bad depression. Her family abandoned her. Many fake friends. She is pregnant.  She wants to keep her child but knows she won't be able to care for it. Ishe feels like this precious thing won't take her for granted. She is strong but weak! I guess that sad little girl is still there. So use to hiding and keep to herself. That she is having a hard time letting out. Or maybe she still Hasn't lettin  go yet. She Knows she needs to she always has so she makes her self believe that she has lettin go but hasn't. To the point she doesn't know what letting go feels like. She is happy with everyone but her self and  her family she feels  like if She really wanted to do this And she really wanted to get better she would put more effort into it. It's just hard when she has  to pays to survive. And she  use to what she is doing and she scared if she stops her routine for somthing she would love to do.she will go off track.she  scared to change, change your only way you know  she knows how  to live. And your scared to do somthing she really wants to do, that will make her life better. Cause she is  so use to feeling depressed and pain. She  scared to feel happy.  Tha