Lost and nobody's looking

What's left to love in me
Doesn't matter I'm a fucking disaster
Going nowhere faster and faster
Ever since love fell on me I've been wasting it
I don't fucking deserve it
Opposite of perfect
I left and I feel deserted
What part of my part of tearing it apart was worth it
Just a jerk trying to pretend I'm more than worthless
My life's a joke and my minds a circus
The hurt hurts
How can I get by if I all I want is to fucking die
I'll be forever replaying events I'm unable to change
Never finding the words to explain myself correctly
I have to accept truth I don't want to believe
I'm a horrible human being and it's unacceptable expecting anything beautiful to accept me
I guess I dealt the hand I'm holding
Tragically trashed what was once a promising destiny