LOST IN DARK DAYS

Met somebody good

No hidden agendas

Supportive, caring

Loving and sweet

Humble so hard to believe

At the wrong time and

Undependable places

Rough road, dark days

Gap became worst challenge

Yet he chose to walk in the darkness

Of a hustling world

Taking chances with me

By my side

In his words he spoke

I’m not going anywhere

I just want the best for you

Yet I was ashamed and with fear

For I never met a kind,

Loving creature in today’s world

Seeking way out from the beginning

Temptation seeking for me

As lost hope and as vulnerable

I let a lie blind me

Fooled me that all is not true

I forgot to invite God in my ways and changes

I panicked, I held back

Pride swallowed me

Emotionally, mentally and physically

Through it all I felt unworthy,

Worshipping my wrongs thinking it’s all right

I was in hunger and longing for the word

Crowded by wrong company

Spiritual eye shut to notice

Accommodating condemnation of negative vibes

I believed I’m not ready

To be the woman in need

To be loved how God created it to be

I failed myself in every way

Resigned, got stood up at the interview

Then I lost my joy and light

Father I surrender

All went wrong

I loved him

Yet weak to keep him

For all was too much to bear

Felt like a coward

Not so proud, unhappy

Depression trying to friendship me

Darkness wants to cover me

Finish me,

Dreams became battlefield

So weak I became when I woke up

Yet won the battles

For I chose to surrender

Finally going to church

I received the word…

Fix it, Apologize and forgive

I felt it, I’m back home

Father has spoken

I want to fix it

Fix my ways with my Father

Then fix me

Pride aside…

I SURRENDER