Lost this war

i can`t escape the screaming voices; all the thoughts inside my head.
I know they are only there to remind me of everything I’ve broken and of the stupid things I’ve said.
But they also try so hard to convince me I have no point in fighting; I’ve already lost this war.
They tell me that that nobody could ever love a fat, self centred whore
give up on make up and trying to fit in
Only fear, disappointment and lies live within your skin.
your not the same person that people enjoyed being around or that people wanted to know.
And no matter how hard you try, you will never be as happy as you were all those years ago.