Rest in peace

When did life become so hard?

when did hearts start ripping you apart?

when did getting up become such a chore?

when did we stop paying attention to the law?

when did friends start leaving you when your down?

when did family stop being around?

when did threatening messages become a daily thing?

when did we loose our will to sing?

life has changed so much for me, i wish it wasn't true

I guess i stopped caring when i lost you

its been many years since I’ve seen your face

but as my best friend you will never be replaced

On September 9th year after year, i will sit there and cry

That’s the day you left me, Why’d you have to die

That phone call destroyed a large part of me,

That phone call hurt more than anything i’ll ever see

You were my everything, and i wish it could be reversed

I sit there with a cake and sing happy birthday every January first

I don’t know what to do anymore, i need you to get through

I think about dying frequently to be reunited with you

But why on earth did you kill yourself, you were only just a kid

I really don’t think i will ever come to terms with what you did

I still fall asleep with a tear in my eye

I’ve been waiting so long just to say goodbye

when you died you took away my happiness, you took away my smile

I cried for months closer to a year, i wont be complete for a while

I’ll sit there with teary eyes trying to speak to you

i don’t know if you can hear me but there’s nothing i wouldn’t do

I just want you to hold me, whenever i begin to cry

I know you can’t be here with me, but i’m not ready to say goodbye

Now your gone you wont get to grow up and get married or be a perfect dad 

I just wish that you’d come back to live the life you should of had

the life you should of had with me.