Love?

If i were to think of you should i really be this confused
Feeling as though my love for you is like helium
Fun at first but if i was to breathe and indulge in you I'll eventually suffocate

If i was to be with you should my heart beat this slow
Though i feel i love you why does my heart not beat like a drum
But beats like im asleep, in slow calm rhythms

Why do i feel the happiest with you when im dreaming
I dont hear a word but i feel emotions radiating off of you in warm waves just like the suns rays
But they are only delusions, what i want
Can i really call this loving you

Why is it that i have so many words to say, so many things to do but when you are near i cant even bring myself to look into your eyes, to sit near you
My mind goes blank and i play the card of the fool
This is not me but why is it the only me that appears

Why is it that after i decided to give up on my love
you come around and tell me i look cute making me turn the colour of a rose in bloom
These are the only moments i feel like my heart is zapped by electricity
Is this the feeling of love
Or the love for attention