Lover

To be in love
To always long to be around you
To feel wanted
To feel needed
           never feeling useless
           never being an outsider
Like you revolve around me
But sometimes I don't feel loved
       And my blood
                          drips
                                drips
                                       drips onto the pages
Bringing the sharp color to my eyes and feeling to my finger tips
Pounding to my breaking heart.
It tries to beat
               it tries.
But it cannot work anymore
                                        it can't.
You stole me
You stole what i was
                      who i was
You stole
You stole
You stole.
Until there was nothing left to steal.
I wanted you.
I want you.
          But you never wanted me.
You had me
                 but
                      I
                       never
                              had
                                  you.