Lying To A Familiar Face

There's no nice way to put it So I'll just come right out and say it.

You don't mean a thing to me

Unpack your fears and lay them out

How you fit them in a hand held case I'll never understand 

Maybe because that's just the tip of the iceberg

Your fears clearly eat you from within

If I look close enough maybe your eyes will have bars on them

Because if the eyes are the windows to the soul you'd prefer if yours never shone out

You say you're at the door packed up ready to leave

Honey you couldn't find the door with a map,a sign,or a personal tour guide 

You're so original I can expect your answer to nearly every question

This is me avoiding the problem though 

It's not you with your stupid desire to keep up the paper thin act that you don't give a damn

The real problem is, I do give a damn and it's all about you

I haven't stopped saying your name since I learned it

I spent months hoping you'd see me

I spent a few days wondering how we ended up wrapped around each other in a lip lock battle

I then spent weeks wondering why I can never have my way but that's another lie too

It hasn't been weeks it's been years

The real problem is I am discontent

I was given love on a trial basis and when it came time to buy the deal fell out

Now that's all I seem to think about

I always thought I couldn't love that way,that my emotions would never transcend past infatuation

That's probably what this is now just infatuation

How could I think I'm in love someone and what if I was how would I know?

It doesn't matter,that's not the point

You don't mean a thing to me and I'm gonna make that true

I have to

A pretend know it all when really I know nothing at all