Memories and Mistakes

Spinning me in circles,
Running laps through my mind,
Memories engulf me,
Things I've done,
Things I've said,
All my regrets whispering in my ear,
Every laugh blessing me with its musical sound,
Every smile lighting up the empty space,
Every mistake jump scaring me from the hidden detail in every memory,
Some I regret fully and might tear me up,
I might wish to go back and fix them,
But the others I wouldn't change for the world,
My beautiful mistakes I'm still facing the backlash from,
Mistake is not a word to throw 'round lightly,
Memories form the base of my voice, heart and laugh,
Finally there is a clear picture of who I've been,
Who I've become is still foggy,
Maybe one day I'll see it clearly...