Mind saying lies (a text message)

To Jennifer.

 I am feeling depressed and my mind is broken and is telling me lies, it tells me all I am is a fuck up, it tells me my purpose is just to be born and to die, and I'm not good enough for you, it's telling me to just end it and get it over with, and stop waisting people's time, my minds bringing back the past of me being beat, of me losing my step dad, watching my mom almost being murdered being held by the throat, and all those times iv been called names, all those times I was hit or shoved, and idk. Being around you makes those thoughts go away, and it gives me hope. And it destroys those memories. All I want or need is to be next to you.