Mirror
Looking in the mirror
whose that staring back?
Apparently it's me but I always hate what I see
People say I'm beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, pretty, cuteΒ
but there just words I hear.
I see and feel ugly, fat, small, boring, worthless, sillyΒ
the list is endless it goes on and on.
Driving myself crazy with the never-ending thoughts and conversations in my head
just wish they would disappear so I could be "normal", not feel so dead.
Wishing I could take the easy way out but I'm too much of a coward
I'd feel too guilty about the mess I'd leave behind for family, all the hurt and pain they would be in.Β
A different brain would be great instead of mind and body numbing pills.
Walking round like a zombie is not good.
Everyday is a struggle just to get out of bed, with my messed up head.
Getting dressed is the worst, I feel so exposed.
4-5 dress retakes later it's make up time.
Struggling to see the beauty others see
I cover my flaws as best as I can, mascara, lipgloss, eyeliner.
Trying to hid the uglyness
Trying to face the world with a smile on my face
I know BDD will forever be the winner!Β
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Comments
We are our own worst enemy. very well penned, the pain is palpable.
Thank you hun. X
What a poem so deep! The struggle you explain is something that many people deal with daily and often times, it goes hidden. Thank you for sharing something so vulnerable, and understandable.Β
Thanks for your comment hun. Yes it is a daily battle, very frustrating. This website helps me see I'm not alone and can express my words and share with others. Xx
Keep your chin up you! This is a wonderful piece of writing that really let me understand how you feel about yourself....I'd like to say 'please try not to...' but things are never that simple (as I myself am painfully aware). Thank you for writing this and putting it out there....I really hope that writing works for you as it does for me...a kind of catharsis of the soul.
T
Thanks so much for your kind comment. I do find writing in here let's it all out and other people can relate so I no I'm not alone with my struggles. Xx
First of all congrats on your nominee! ??? I think many people can relate to this piece,Β
we like to self reflect in a way, most times that we tear ourselves down instead of trying to build oneself up, you have put all your insecurities and self worth in this, most people struggle to do, but you've done it in an artistic way and that my dear is always a positive! Power to the people sister!! Excellent write! ?????
Aww thanks so much hun. I just have to write down my feelings and get them out. Makes me feel better. Thanks for reading and commenting. I'm loving your poems too hun they are great. Xx
Hi ShortyΒ
Poem writing is my form of escapism too
Congrats on your well deserved nominationΒ
KieranΒ
Aww thanks so much. I love this site, the poems and people are amazing x
This is an amazing pieceΒ of writing,
I think we can all relate to how you feel.
Just keep going and know that you are beautiful!!
Thx, Rocky
Thanks so much xx
The mirror imageΒ we see of ourselvesΒ is not always the reflection God sees ,God sees much more our inner beauty
TheΒ reason for existing and the list goes on and on and on
the mirror and God have a lot in common .
Thanks for your comments hun x
So many of us do or have felt this way at some point.. Thanks for sharing.. so.etimea we are our own worst enemy ??
congrats on your win
Well done and congrats?
So well done, Β congratulations beautiful ink.
JohnΒ
Thanks so much for your comments x
congrats on this piece it is the truth we all face these battles and no one really notices because we cover it up so well. sometimes wounds heal on the outside but the inside battles hurt us the most. you deserve the nominee for this one. Great work!
Thanks so much xx
Amazing so open. So honest.perhaps you need complimenting more on your beauty you have magical eyes