Misplaced Trust

I trusted you
With all my heart
I always adored you
Right from the start

All I wanted you to do
Was notice me
But instead you chose
To desecrate me

I thought meeting you would make me happy
I thought you held the world on your shoulders
But then you had your perverted way
And deep inside my world grew colder

A gaping abyss took over my soul
And I became highly vulnerable
Sensitive to others
And untouchable

Stuck as a child
The memory never fades
The icy touch of your hand
And the lust on your face

You were meant to look after me
To help me grow
Back then I ignored the horror
But now I know

Feeling worthless
Feeling abandoned
Feeling fragile
Feeling saddened

Sexually stuck in childish ways
To escape, all the means I tried
Flirting with ‘friends’
But crying inside

You were my hero
You were my world
But you soon broke that trust
And it all unfurled

That trust isn’t broken just as a child
Adults too can abuse their spouse
Crushing their children
And numbing a house

And all you did
Was trust them never to leave
And all you did
Was trust them never to deceive

But at the time
I couldn’t see
The naked truth
I wouldn’t believe

But now I know
And now I’m strong
I can admit to myself
That you were wrong

And you deserve to be punished
For what you did
When you abused their trust
Adult or kid