Mixed feelings

Combinations of our mixed thoughts and feelings...
you want a cuddle,
I do,
but also so much more.....
our tumbled thoughts of how an evening should go,
rumbling anger,
you telling me you know.....
how could you know when the same problem arises.....
how could you know when it's all down to me to continue the surprises.....
How could you know when it should be ever-changing not never changing......
knowing is seeing,
touching,
believing.
is the belief still in you as it is in me?
do you undress me with your eyes when I enter the room?
do I still give you that va va voom?
All i know is you do me,
you still make my heart go boom ba da boom.
you give me life ,
and all i want to give you is my passion.
but how can I when you take our thoughts and feelings  and mash em'.
making them unreadable.
make them and take them but please don't ever break them cos that'll be when our love story ends and will show me what you've  shown has been make pretend.