Monster

Oh god...
here it is again. 
The monster is back
and it's here to shake things up
like a tornado, 
a whirlwind of pain 
and emotion,
swirling around me,
taking my breath,
choking me...
strangling me. 
I try
I try
I try to fight. 
It's too much...
too sudden,
too late. 
The monster is back. 
And it's taken me away again. 
Swept me off my feet, 
I tumble...
Farther, 
harder,
more sudden. 
More painful 
than ever. 
And...
just like that,
I'm 

g o n e .