Monthly Cloud

It's here again my big black cloud
I wish it wouldn't come 
It really shouldn't
 be allowed
It makes my mind go numb...

No one else can see it
But they somehow know it's there
They must see me turning
Into a grizzly bear...

I find myself just snapping
At nearly every one
Then they all avoid me
Till the big black cloud has gone...

It likes to stay around a while
Two days to a week
I turn into a monster
I turn into a freak

What have I done wrong
One question often asked 
Nothing I always tell them
My feelings I keep masked...

Inside I'm saying sorry
But my mouth will not allow
So everyone keeps thinking
Im looking for a row

I say things I don't mean
And don't say things I should
My heart turns from being soft
Into a lump of wood

I love it when the cloud goes
And be myself again
I smile along with everyone
And once again feel sane...