Moving on

It's been quite some time now 
I've been through so very much 
Sometimes a memory will be triggered 
By just the slightest touch. 

I don't think it'll ever go away 
Perhaps just stay in my mind 
It's not the type of thing 
To which I will just become blind. 

I want to properly move on 
But something keeps going wrong 
Then I go back to waiting 
And every time it feels so long. 

I dream of the day it's over 
My life can go back to being mine 
It won't be a lie 
Each time I say I'm fine.