Loss

I'll never forget that day 
When I found out you had gone away 
Girl, you had such a beautiful soul
I know that your absence leaves a huge hole. 

A girl with such a big, kind heart 
You didn't deserve to have to part
Now there is an empty space left 
I know so many people wept and wept. 

I'm still so sad you had to go 
It wasn't fair, it never will be so 
How broken now we all remain 
It seems that nothing can heal our pain. 

My heart, it sometimes pounds through my chest 
I feel I am being put to a test
I hear the voices scream in my head 
It shouldn't have been you to end up dead. 

I hope that now your pain is less
Although I know I'm still a mess
I would give what I have just to be free
If anyone went, it should have been me. 

I look up enviously at the stars in the sky
And hope that someday I can learn to fly
Hold your breath and count to three 
Look away and don't worry about me.