My Best Friend

Dear God,

It’s me your son and I need your help today I’m feeling kinda lost….

I’m aware the wages of sins is death and I desire not to pay the cost….

It’s like every time  I choose the right path evil’s standing waiting…..

from this battle I get the sensation my spirit is suffocating…

I heard your call and answered to you Oh Lord I give myself away…

Temptations rise and to that yes I sway….

My queen sent by you I know is heaven’s best…

Yet when the exams of lust, perversion, and seduction arise I fail the test…

Her love never waivers…through her with you I’ve found favor…

It was you who revealed she’s my wife….yet the traps of my ancestral yokes has brought our courtship much strife….

Humility is a task I’ve yet to achieve…

Before I apologize I’ll watch her leave so please, from these murky waters set me free…life would have no meaning if living without her was my reality….

She’s a virtuous woman who calls out to you day and night…

Standing firm on the love and word discovered at first sight….

This affection of hers I’ve never known it feel everlasting…

Still to the women of my past I continue comparing and contrasting…

Lord unfasten me from these chains that keep me bound..

What’s taunting me are the groans to the pain I’ve caused her; in my ear it’s a constant sound…

How it is her love remains….

Entered in owing nothing yet all of her I gained…

Often I don’t even know why from my tongue flows damaging lyrics….

It’s like I’m under the control of unclean spirits….

My seeds are my pride and joy……the bond they've established with her I seek not to destroy..

Nothing foul concerning her I can ever dispel so why from her do I  run…jump the gun and yelled from this relationship cut all ties…

Knowing all along the words were lies…

Yet from her eyes; not a single tear arose…

Instead she said God gave me a promise and on His word my feet are froze…

Lord knows a faith like hers many should possess….. because of it our marriage must manifest….

There’s a sparkle in her smile…satan deceived me with the proclamation true love is out of style…

So here I am Lord at your throne petitioning you for mercy and grace….

Unto you I return my will in exchange for the strength to finish this race….

Mend the pieces of our heart, remove the wedge that pushed us apart….

You lead me as I lead her…

On Christ the solid rock we stand regardless of what occur….

This cry is not simply because I desire not to lose my wife….

The time has now come for me to fulfill my purpose in life….

Lord if you never do another thing for me, truly you’ve done enough….

And though the road to our destiny might be rough…

Eternally I vow to assume my position as the highpriest of our home…..

On earth Satan roams seeking who he may devour….

Yet we stand with victory acknowledging you as our strong tower…..

False evidence appearing real you no longer sit at my table….

In the strength of Jesus I rise shouting my God is able….

Let the Glory of the Lord rise upon us….

My hope is not in man for in God I trust…..

And DADDY if none of these petitions I see fulfilled before my life end…to be in your presence again is worth the battles within…for it’s been a lonely walk in life without you…my best friend!