My End.

I felt the pain oozing out, much like blood from my vains. Then again was it actually blood? Because I feel like I just wasn't enought to keep you satisfied. My heart began to break my body began to decay and I felt myself wither away. I was no longer a body but a hollow shell. I saw the future in you and put my very soul in permanent ink across your palms I swear I could have married it all. Your smile, your laugh, your tears. I wish I had better hearing maybe I would have heard the change in your tone when we spoke and I wish I had better vision because I would have saw the difference in your body when we awoke and you would just pulled away. I wish I would have handle you leaving different but I didn't I just said end it. Because you said you no longer felt the love and I felt my heart  being tugged and tore right out of my chest you said maybe its for the best and maybe we will find love again within each others eyes but when we shared that last quick kiss good bye I knew I would never taste those lips again. And so I wept. Wept to my eyes had no more tears left. And I dreamt. Dreaming it was all a dream and not actually reality but funny thing life has made my life into one big comedy and im the only one not laughing. See I wrote scriptures in your nightmares I wote poems in your sadness. I fought off every demon that awoken when you slept and I promised that with my life I would protect you but now he doesnt even hold you the same. He has erased all my finger prints from your frame. He has removed every one of my pitcure from every inch of your brain and all I can do is watch as my memory in you fades. Like clouds after a storm he was your sun light and I was the rain that had finally stopped flowing. I didnt know I was drowing you. I didnt know that my hands were the reason you stopped letting me hold you. Because they felt to much like emptiness and regret im sorry my love for you wasn't what you expected but i loved you with my all. I always caught you when you began to fall and never once did I let you hit the ground. But the same spot where you would have hit you put my heart for me to find it. Maybe a letter would have been easier but now my stars are fading and my galaxies are collapsing. I no longer dream of purple and red fireworks but of large burning fires. Fires that consume every inch of my flesh. And maybe it was for the best you said. But I know now my body will eventually die and your whisper goodbyes will be all that's left.