Window broken until futher notice.

I have this big ass sign on my heart. It says "Sorry Window broken until further notice." See I was told "Let thee with out Sin cast the first stone" Well that said stone turned out to be a big ass boulder and that said person turned out to be the love of my life. Or so I thought. Because while I was building a future within her soul she was feeding from another's love. And while I was molding our foundation she was playing footsies under my pride's shadow. She surfed secrecy down the waves of my spine and hid behind the empty space between my lungs. I always thought it was her kisses that left me breathless. She left my heart like a robbery gone wrong. And even though I complied with her every demand I was still left lifeless on the ground. Shattered pieces of what was once my life line lied next to my abandoned corpse. I was to numb to shock myself back to life so I succumbed to the nothingness that awaited. My mother and best friends said "Zai don't let this one be the death of you." But how could they understand that with out her I was darkness. She was my galaxy in a space full of abyss. "Zai you are not alone." But with out her touch I was numb with out her kiss my body felt forever in pain. "Alazai. Sometimes to love in time means to be broken and rebuilt" but how could I rebuild when this window. This fucking window. The one I  spent years trying to strengthen. The one I spent years keeping people away from.She broke it with out so much as a single fucking remorse. And now I lay open to the world like a bleeding wound. If this be death then I'm sure  that this what torture is. But then again in order to find peace you have to first meet hell. I have no clue what to do now. But I know one day this will all make sense. I'm slowly learning that dying doesn't always mean an end. And that sometimes broken doesn't always mean forever. But for right now I'll keep this sign up and when ever someone tries to look into my heart they'll see. "Sorry, Window broken till further notice."