My first "child"

You called me mom.. 
See I have a nephew on the way and I can't wait for his arrival but he will never be you. You called.. Me mom. The way your face lit up when I was around, excites me. Those eyes sparkled in a way that only stars can and that enlightens me. To feel the same joy for you as though I was meeting the love of my life, it brightens me. But now to not hear your voice in the middle of the night when I wake up, it frightens me. You called me mom. You're the first thought on my mind as soon as I open my eyes and guess what? The last thing I think of at night. Surprise. I've met many little ones.. Kids just like you. None with your name or your face. Not with your amazing grace. Not with your style or that curly hair.. Not that called me mom... I miss you more with every rising sun.. My rising son.. You have a piece of my heart that is youthful just like you and I hope it gets blood flow soon. I miss you. Signed.. Your mom.