My goodbye letter

To love Is easy, to lose is hard , I know u and I were delt the worse card in the deck. As kids and up till a month ago we only had each other. You were my cousin but more like my brother. I feel like the stars don’t shine as bright  the sun doesn’t warm my face the rain doesn’t make me at peace and the days have gotton longer, I wish I could get through this I wish I were a little stronger. my heart aches without you now. I have all theses why’s When’s And how’s . Just questions I wish I knew. Everyone says your in a better place, happy and  not in pain. But I feel like I’ve lost my other half and I’m going insaine. I miss our talks  and the way u made me laugh till I cried the way your eyes looked off when u lied  I miss you always saying “ I love you  first and waiting till I said it back.  I’m  glad ur happy and not hating your life.I wish u would have just told me instead of leaving me to hurt and wonder if I could have saved you . I blame myself for the last words I said,I hope u forgive me. It’s not us or we anymore it’s just me against the world  I’m just glad ur watching over me from above just know this letter Isent goodbye it’s to tell u to be careful when u fly. Love always krystal