My Heartache

My heart.... it aches ..... I think .... I'm tired ... tired of the trust I have but surpasses the understanding and compromising factors of others .... blinded by the religion that consumes this world as if it's the guiding light of every thought process ... even if it seems unethical .... what's so wrong with living life and being in love ? It never hurt anyone but instead it just supposedly made friends along the way... and even better than that ... true love .... but is true love even a thing when love is given and stripped away in the same breath ? Or is it the overall feeling of companionship ??? I'm not exactly sure but my heart aches .... so many questions to why I was made this way .... I don't quite understand it ... a heartless body would suit me better ... because then I'd be alone and it would be perfectly fine with me ...