My life, My love

I still feel like I shouldn't be here even though it's for the best. I admit I feel the need for you even though I could never rest.
I was terrified to sleep.
I wasnt able to eat.
I had no meaning.
I put up with beating.
You heard me screaming, but it never mattered.
You said that you loved me, but you tried to change my almost everything.
I felt trapped and stayed to protect my loved ones, but now that I'm out and me, I'm done.
Your voice still makes me cringe. The chance you could be near gets me unhinged. There's a bright side to this. I got stronger. I got my life under control. Grab someone else if you want someone to hold. I'm done being hurt.
These nights are getting easier.
I can face it all if you're near.
I'm better off being here.
Living and loving my life is becoming so clear.
I'm done living in fear!
My black eye has been gone for quite a while now.
My mind takes time after 3 months, but it'll get there even though I wonder how.
Sometimes I just wanna shout, I found my way out. I know the signs and I'm not going back. My life, my love are worth more than that. I'm done and I'm moving on. You're left in my wake. That's how I know I'm strong.