My Life Will Never be the Same

I was told It could take a year to heal,
that what was done was a crime,
that the situation would scar,
and my life would never be the same. 

How a little moment could turn my world upside down,
how the damage of a single decision could haut ones soul.
Nightmares, flashbacks, a conner of remembrance,
I beg time to have mercy on me, 
for I can't take the inner strain of this exhausting pain. 

I was told to not let this define me,
to go back to normal routine,
to cover the scar and let go. 
But even so,
my life would never be the same. 

Walked and walked till my feet throbbed,
but even then I couldn't walk my shame away,
I couldn't run from how I now feel.....dirty
For I can't take the inner strain of this exhausting pain. 

My life will never be the same...... I can't fix it.