My Lonely Thought

I lay in this four corner room 
The walls drowning in depression
My thoughts eat away at me 
Bite by bite until there is nothing left  but bones
Feeling dead to the world 
I sink into my thoughts of misery 
Illusions of happiness dancing around me
But they quickly fall over their own feet 
My smile flips to a frown 
My laughter slips my mind 
As if my brain was a huge play grown  slide 
Around and around it goes 
Into my pond of sorrow 
Depression slaps me in the face with  a dose of reality!
The horror of sadness lurking in my dark room
Laying staring at the ceiling
Trying to imagine  a smile on my face   Only it's a picture with my face scratched out
My joyous emotions buried down so deep
A oil rig of hopefulness  couldn't indent the surface
On the outside I seem normal
The inside is over taken with gloom
My veins spew with lifeless blood
The pain grows!
Somewhat like a dead rose
Showing its ugly truth!
The thorns extremely sharp with bleakness
To prick me every time I try to rip it out
As I bleed out my source of blissfulness 
I fade to my dead state of mind