My Mind

I awake in the morning, but what for? Yes I have depression. Is there a cure? If so, give it to me now. I feel trapped inside life. I want to die, but don't have the courage to pick up the knife.

My nights are full of loneliness and tears; I'm so numb nothing bothers me, not even my fears. My days are full are fake smiles and fake laughter; but when you see my dark true self, will you still love me after?

Tired of caring because it only causes pain; I can feel myself slowly going insane. Break down upon break down; when will it end? Or will it? Will I forever have to pretend? I've become it's host, it's wrapped all around me. I used to feel things, but now just feel so empty.

The symptoms are there, but does anyone care? Here, have some too; after all it's nice to share. I feel so tired, when can I go to sleep? When will you hear me weep? My grand masquerade seems to have been such a success. Now to take off the mask, and let you see my mess.

If you could see me from the inside, you'd see nothing but black; you'd want to leave, but realize there's no way back. It wraps all around you, and you don't even realize it; until one day you do, but you've dug too deep of a pit.

Like chains covered in death, like a cage, you are confined. Like a cell full of despair, like a parasite, it has taken over your mind. You wanted inside, so enjoy your stay; because now you can never get away.

You will run and run, but will go nowhere; eventually you just won't care. Into the darkness you stare, and realize you live the ultimate nightmare. Forget about your dreams and goals; they've all been buried in 1,000 mile holes.

You've been twisted and corrupted, beaten and bruised; the best part is that you're not even done being used. Go ahead, I'll let you leave; I promise I will not deceive. Go ahead and love, give them your heart; later it rips it apart, and creates such dark art.

Now back to your world you go, and keep the knowledge you now know. However, my dear boy here will stay, since you didn't help him, but you don't care anyway.