My mind's roommates

here it is again
it's 5 o'clock in the morning

why can't I sleep
unless I take medication

even if I do
then I sleep to long

my insomnia
is like a song

my depression
is my drug

my anxiety
is my depressions dark friend

my ADHD 
is my anxietys hyper mate

anything I try to do
I seem to be always late

no one can't lend me a helping hand
because it's all on the inside

my hands are sweaty
so even if I can get a grip

I'll just end up slipping
I'll always fall to the ground

with all of these roommates
all of them inside my head,my body

I get brusied trying to retake my soul
it's so draining trying to fight yourself

even though I just wanna give up
my mind's in a cage

all batterd up, from trying to escape
no one knows how I smile

they think I'm just lying 
just because I smile

no one knows im bruised on the inside
all of these things leave scars

it's like I'm getting abused
from the inisde, out

I try shout
but like always nothing comes out

my body is stiff
my mind's a shifting

they say I need my walls tore down
but they don't know is, I've tried

they say I need to cry
cause it good for you they say

I look at them, like why
this is who I am

I think it's time to end this poem
cause my mates are finally slowing

maybe I can get some shut eye 
before they get energized again

but I know it'll be this way tonight
because they never sleep when its dark

so goodnight my friends
see you all again later

when the sun goes down
then it time to do it 
all over again