My Son In Heaven

15 years old,
Was when I was blessed with this little baby
Daddy and I were so happy
Mommy didn't know
Daddy was seeing someone else
Mommy thought this world was something else
He took my hand and looked my in the eyes
He said, I'm sorry I found someone else
I cried and I was dying inside
For I did not know that this was gonna be so hard
To give my son the world when mine was so torn apart
I rubbed my stomach and prayed every night
Maybe God would help me and make everything right
That night I hit the ground
Blood was everywhere and I didn't make one sound
The pain was too much
I didn't know the baby was coming so fast
I cried and begged for daddy but he couldn't come
For he was in a room with some girl and his sins were being done
I cried and cried and finally I see my son
He was so tiny and I kissed his lips
I played with his finger tips
He did not cry or open his eyes. I held him till I was dead inside
He felt so fake
Almost like a doll
I called daddy to tell him his son had been born
He said it is better that he died
So I sat there and just cried
Everything was not all right
God took my son from me
Baby boy I'll see you soon
Don't ever forget that you'll be in my arms and well be the family that was meant to be