My Visions

these visions came back into my mind again,
back to restless nights and tears that fall again, scared to close my eyes even
if its just for a few, its all but flashbacks and memories that only pass thru.
back to feeling broken and used again, just remembering every word that was simply said,
calling me a whore, telling me it would be all i was ever known for.
wishing i can go back to feeling like i simply did before
I don't want to feel this way again, don't want to be this way no-more,
I wish i didn't have these flashbacks replaying like a movie in my head, going from scene to 
scene only making me feel numb and dead.
will I ever feel normal again? will these flashbacks and nightmares really ever end?
why me is what I ask everyday, why did it happen to me, why did they choose me to hurt so
bad? why did these visions have to come back and leave me sad and blue? why me, what did I
ever do?