never been alone to feel lonely

my nightmare of my past is not for all. It still scares me today. Not only do I have scares upon my skin, but deep down inside on my soul it scares that are harder to heal. And the reason my fear of alone don't rester on my fear chart is because I wish to be alone in that time. And I wasn't. The monsters were real and standing right in front me. And never left me alone to feel lonely.