Never new

Never in my life did I think I could ever get this low
out in the streets with so much pain no loving faces no we're to go
who can I turn to no one I lost my kids my house and mostly  my brain
the things that I've been through this past year has caused me so much pain
I never new
that my life will turn up side down so fast
went from the top to the bottom from first to last
I have been so physically and mentally abused by those that love me most
kept saying to myself so sure things couldn't get any worst
never new
I would be left In this world to feel so lost so alone 
I just want to feel again just want my kids to come home
I been put down so much but never once received a helping hand
no matter how much they kicked me while I was down but still I stand
I never new
the ones that's supposed to love me hated me the most
prayed for my down fall shoot cut my throat
ripped out my heart and stomped out my soul
how could u be so cold
so young but because of the stress I feel so old
never new
I lost my family  my kids my life for u
how could u say u love me while punching me at the same time boo
I feel like a young women lost so caring and now so private 
broke my heart with all the cheating all the late nights and the lying 
had me waiting up for u in the window crying
I never new
I never no u could build me up with so much hatred 
play with my feelings then douge me like the matrix 
I can no longer go on living in this place like hell
it's like I'm locked up behind bars in a little cell
so much anger so much pain and no one to tell
I fight through the struggle but how much longer can I be strong
my life so terrible sound life a sad song
I never new
that I can have my hole life taking by the one I love 
but I'm a angel now and I'm blessed I'm above 
the anger the lies and the pain
u played with me enough my life is no game 
I will always love u but this time I have to walk away