New chapter

Sitting here in a darklit room
thoughts arise an wait to bloom...I start to fall never hitting the ground facing life an i THOUGHT id drowned....
trying to grasp to the mind I have left going insain feelings right to the chest...one day after another feeling like an outsider thinking it would change give me hope a new fire....wanting somone to catch me when im falling a life full of positive no name calling....as many chances ive given as many leaps that ive taken somthing inside me has now jus awaken....new hopes an dreams in my reach hearing people talk but cant take wat they preach ....trust is a word that defines all odds its like a power that we resort to the gods..they say thirs one person who will no u in an out but I can never open up never took that route...a new chance thats taken only hoping for the best 2018 the  bad memories  all suppressed... in monica an I no my worth its time to rejuvenate an a new rebirth.....