Next breath

I don't deserve this.
A lifetime of betrayal and grief.

But life is unfair.    

God is unfair.

I am nothing.

I am no one.

I am disposable. 

I feel small and pitiful.

Everything and everyone is taken from me.

I can't get my mind to comprehend

That I don't belong anywhere 

My soul searches for acceptance 

My heart longs to find the home I never had

And the family that life only teases me with. 

It never stops.

Endless torment

There's never a break

There is never any comfort

No one is my friend

They take what they want

And destroy what's left

And leave.

No family that wants me in their lives

Everyone disposed of me

God abandon me

Why would anyone want to take their next breath

With a life like mine

I'd do anything for this misery to end.

L. Mack

5/4/25