No Grey in Childhood!

Paint a picture of living reality 
Take a brush from childhood
where each stroke is a memory had
White for good and Black for bad

See the canvas as happiness
How much white can you see?
Christmas, making sandcastles, playing out
Fear, mental torment, guilt, a nearly blackout

What before you is created
by lived experience happy and sad
The scene is forming on the page
Look for the colour to this early age

Innocence in youth is there
pleasure amazing or sadness too much
Trying to colour what I remember
now time has gone from May to September 

Today I paint a picture new
with brushes from my Autumn years
Happenings, feelings, an image assigned 
truth emerges, childhood colours realigned

Black or White? So clear to me 
visualising the developing colour
I understand now with no childhood glee
What's the colour? Black or White?

No just lots of Grey to see!