No other way out

The pain is too bad for me 
There is no release for me 
Can't stand this pain to linger 
Maybe if I just cut my finger ? 

The pain is still too bad for me 
I still have no release for me 
Maybe if I just slash my arm ?
I will feel a sense of calm 

The pain has not yet left me 
I still have no release for me 
I'm sat shaking clenching fists 
Thinking I need to slit my wrists 

Sharp stings from the knife 
Wonder if I ended life 
Blood starts to trickle now
Sweat is falling from my brow 

I get a bandage to clean the mess
I have the feeling of can't care less 
But then I have to stop and think 
Do I want my ship to sink ? 

The pain is going, feel so much better 
Bandages getting redder and wetter
 so at ease but feeling numb 
Lost feeling in fingers and feeling in bum 

Think i over done it this time 
Cut that main artery of mine 
Feel so faint can hardly see
Wonder who's waiting for me 

I'm sorry that I had to leave 
I'm sorry u will have to grieve 
But this pain could not go on 
Just felt like I didn't belong