No Use In Trying

I know that I keep pushing you away.

I probably always will.

It's all I've ever known to do.

It saves me from getting hurt real bad.

At least for awhile.

It gets old after a bit.

Is it wrong to not want to be hurt anymore?

All my life has been is pain.

That's all I know.

I just want it to get better.

I just want to be happy.

I have nothing.

I never will.

So I might as well give up.

I'm not meant to have anyone.

There's no use in trying.