No Voice

Feels like i'm living in a nightmare,
this feeling I have will never compare.
Gone in the blink of an eye,
never a chance to voice out his cry.
Lost in sadness, your in shock, why did you have to die?
All you can think about is what did I do wrong?
Did I eat enough, sleep enough, how can I be strong?
Can I ever overcome this?
Even for just one second I can hold you and give you a kiss.
When I dream your always there,
a dark, dank dungeon, I can hear you through the air.
Melancholy thoughts run through my head,
I sit in the corner, with my veins pooring red.
Tiredness slowly engolfs my mind,
i'm gonna need a pick me up just to unwind.
Then I wake up screaming in cold sweat,
look at the clock its been 8 hours, feels like I haven't slept.
I try to forget but 16 years later I still think of you,
unless you been through this, you'll really have no clue.
My 2 kids now are Jaggar and Royce,
but I could never replace you, the one that came with "No Voice".

                                                                               Joanna