No words can say

This is a poem that I created in which I had took a poem that the love of my life wrote In which I broke into two sections splitting hem in half which I added I know she wrote as well. I'm so grateful to have her words can never say enough. I hope you can enjoy this. And know what this poem really means for me. 
 

(.)L.S

"He left this world for quite some time 

 

Barely visible throughout the void

 

 

 

He was lost in a place full of nothing at all

 

 

 

He was stuck in that place for quite some time

 

 

 

I was calling to him as loud as i could 

 

 

 

For a moment he saw a glimpse

 

 

 

He learned a way to start fighting back

 

 

 

Home "

 

 

 

(C w) " It was 10 days to be exact

 

13 if we count the 3

 

 it took to get back!  

 

I couldn't tell though 

 

Honestly I experienced the meaning Of eternity purgatory in hell so far from home 

 

 so fucking lost there was no fucking hope

 

 There was nothing 

 

Just this and feeling so fucking alone

 

For eternity 

 

In a place time doesn't exist There's just no such thing 

 

I had no concept of it in any kind of way

 

Meaning 

 

I could no longer differentiate 

 

Between seconds , hours , days 

 

It's hard to explain but those words didn't mean anything as you were experiencing time passing away throughout your day for me there was no such day no such thing to experience that it was passing away you're just there 

 

There's no way to explain

 

 eternity in a way

 

 you truly could understand

 

 what and the only way you can 

 

 

 

Is to xperience it first hand

 

I had no recollection 

 

Of how I even got there 

 

Or where I even was at 

 

Just I was somewhere

 

 my body wasnt

 

In

 

Existing in a different demonsion 

 

But I still had some connection 

 

From this hell I was in 

 

And I could hear here from a distance 

 

Somewhere through the void 

 

Of nothingness 

 

The feeling of despair

 

So desperate 

 

She was watching over me

 

 from over there 

 

So fucking lost 

 

Fuck I gotta get out of here 

 

She saw something a slight glimpse 

 

Out of his stare

 

A dim light lit 

 

From the dark dead glare 

 

She saw it 

 

I could hear here from the distance 

 

Despair

 

 shit despair's never felt this desperate 

 

She saw it 

 

I was there somewhere 

 

She felt desperate 

 

 she can feel my despair

 

She made the connection With all her love and care 

 

It was something she had written

 

If not for her I'd still there  

 

Just existence

 

nothing nowhere 

 

Doing all I could do 

 

In the hell I was going through 

 

Thinking I hope you know I'm trying to get home to you 

 

And just how much I love you too 

 

The depths of hell her love u felt 

 

Through and through 

 

That's what brought me back to myself

 

 If only You knew 

 

How I knew 

 

She meant every word 

 

 It was all true 

 

 

 

(L.S.)

 

"I miss being with you. I miss you. I miss our time. I miss how you feel. I miss holding you and being held by you. I miss staring into your eyes. I miss when you look at me and tell me im beautiful and actually meaning it. I miss our fucking hugs. I miss kissing you. I miss holding your hand. I miss having your hand on my leg when you're driving. I miss rubbing your head and you arms and your back. I miss listening to your heartbeat. I miss seeing you smile when i smile. I miss being able to bring you joy just by standing next to you. I miss making you coffee. I miss our walks. I miss watching Murphy snuggling with you. I miss your midnight cravings. I miss touching your face. I miss feeling your hands on my body. I miss you biting my lip lol. I even miss when you fuck with me about hickeys. I miss you laughing with me about random shit. I miss your excitement about spending time together. I miss counting down the days. I miss our kwik trip trips. I miss when you stand behind me and put your arms around me. I miss your body. I miss feeling our souls connecting just by being close. I miss the feeling of you. I miss the feeling of us. I miss our touch. I miss seeing your amazement with massage. I miss giving you them. I miss receiving them. I miss comforting you. I miss your kindness when I need help. I miss having your mouth by my ear. i miss our time. I miss you. I really fucking miss you. I miss having our yay days. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you."

 

 

 

(C. W.)Through the void I roamed carry her words with me 

 

Till I finally made it home 

 

Through the void there are no exits 

 

You must connect to wherever you try to go 

 

Through her love and affection 

 

Never losing hope 

 

I connected to self

 

Finally I'm home

 

The feelings I've lost and alone in a way you could never know 

 

But then feeling a lot of everything 

 

In every sense of the way in a way you could only know 

 

If you ever been to this place 

 

I know I'm changed 

 

That much I know 

 

that place changed me

 

 through and through

 

 

 

(L.S

 

"When he came back he wasn't sure,

 

Is this really true?

 

He began to feel

 

And his feelings grew

 

And grew

 

And he wasn't sure if he was ready for his return 

 

His emotions were on overload

 

He pushed so hard 

 

Made such progress 

 

He had come back

 

But he wasn't sure if this was good or not

 

Was he ready?

 

He wants so badly to to feel himself

 

Oh god he tries

 

He is full of everything

 

The nothingness is gone

 

How does he get back on his feet?

 

How oh how can he make things right?

 

Hes torn about

 

He starts reaching out

 

Scared to do this all alone

 

He has someone 

 

Who loves him so

 

She will never leave him on his own

 

They fight for hope

 

And learn so much

 

They know he's still has a way to go

 

He needs to heal

 

He needs to go somewhere 

 

Where they have to seperate for bit

 

This place will bring clarity 

 

And will bring him peace

 

She stays by his side as he's away

 

Their souls stay connected and

 

Only grow stronger

 

Their love has never been more true

 

 

 

(CW)

 

   I'm just so thankful she loved me and she saw this through 

 

God baby I hope you know just how much I fucking love you

 

I just don't know what to say

 

 cuz I can't explain anything

 

About anything That was happening 

 

No matter what I say 

 

Either I did or didn't dissociate 

 

There's no way to look at it 

 

Or anyone would think 

 

Either of it either way was a reality 

 

All I know is I'm forever changed 

 

I'm just glad that I had you 

 

Every step of the way 

 

I love you so fucking much

 

I hope you know it in every way 

 

And that I'm sorry for everything 

 

That you went through 

 

Just to be there for me 

 

Means everything 

 

And I just fucking love you

More than anything

Forever and always 

  always forever 

 in every sense in every way and

 any other way you could think 

I mean forever as in always 

Everyday 

I love you because you love me through everything

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