NOBODY KNOWS
Nobody knows what they have got
Till they don`t have it anymore!
My son gave me many pleasures in life
Gifts both great and small.
But most importantly
He gave me his love
The most beautiful gift of all.
A sparkling light has been snuffed out of my life
Oh Lord what I`d give to see it shine!
But all I have now are memories
Of the life we had when he was mine!
Nobody knows the treasures they`ve got
Until they are snatched from your grasp!
And you can`t hold them anymore!
Then into hell you descend!
As pure misery walks through the door.
Everyone loves the sunshine
But I just want it to rain!
Because in the sun I can`t hide my tears!
Now that I know he won`t be coming home to me again!
Death took him from me
He didn`t stand a chance!
Now I`ll never again easily smile!
I was so happy with him at my side
But now this pain is just so hard to hide.
What do I do now that he`s gone?
Where do I go from here?
My world was such a joy
Now it`s just filled with tears.
They say that time`s a healer
But how can that be?
He`s gone and it`s left a huge hole
Where my soul used to be!
The impression I give to the world
Is just a great big pack of lies!
The smile on my face is a front!
It`s just a pathetic disguise!
I miss his beautiful smile!
And the cheeky way he used to wink!
I took my happiness for granted
Now it tears me apart just trying to think.
This pain is never ending
I really no longer want to be here!
They say that mum`s kisses are supposed to make everything better
But I can`t do that because he`s no longer near!
Now all I have are words on paper
A therapy spread terribly thin!
But I`m not ill and I don`t need a doctor!
Please Lord....I just need him!
G xx
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Awww G This write is so sad grief is so all consuming at times
Sometimes I feel like i am in my own little bubble and i don`t
want to let anybody in i just want to be alone with my thoughts and memories
but other times i think my mother would not want me like this
and try to be ok because that is what she would want,
A very heart tugging write made me cry
big hugs and love to you Debs xx
Oops! sorry it made you cry!! Thank you for reading it though sweetie and I`m glad you liked it. Grief does some strange things to folk and we all deal with it in different ways, this is my way of dealing with it, the therapy of writing!!
God bless
Love G xx
Oh, our dear Georgina,
As I said yesterday, God and Andrew sent you a blessed gift from Heaven, your beautiful Daughter Bethica's baby, Mayah-Rose. I know the pain. I know the false smiles. I know the taking the happiness for granted. I suffer with you, my love, for my tears are never ending, too. I live in a void, with guilt that I'm depriving my two other soulmates their due, but, unable to control, this dire depression. We are just a threesome. You are surrounded by loving ones who depend on you, not to mention your special people on Cosmo, that all love you too. May God Bless You.
With all our love to you,
L & L
Hi sweetie,
Thank you for that wonderful message, that means so much to me. Myah-Rose is just such a delight and I wish you could both meet her. She has just had her immunization injections today, the last ones until she is 12mths, she has three little red poorly lumps on each thigh so she is feeling very sorry for herself at the moment, but she still gave a big smile and a chuckle for her Nanny and Granddad today! and that is just the best medicine you could ever wish for when you have a broken heart, that smile and a cuddle makes all my hurt go away for a while Larry and it`s so special! I know exactly what you mean about the guilt we feel and the depression, that`s so hard to control! Some days are better than others, so we need to stay strong for each other and I`m sure we would all get a jolly good telling off from Nico and Andrew if we could hear them. They brought us all together for the comfort and love we share and it`s so important that we remember that too. I love you both dearly and I will always be here for you too.
God bless
G xx