now I am tall not small

Where am I?
Where did I go?
 What made it all 
So,,, so complicated?
I was just a  child
All I wanted 
was to be a kid.
No one asked me.
Now I am a man.
Did it happen overnight.
My girl friends from scool
became lovers.
I did not need that
I miss them.
We were always friends
Trust was always there.
Now its flying above me
Landing like a butterfly
On my shoulder
Moving away 
with the smallest breeze.
I am big
I want to be 
small again..
Make me small.
Dont leave me here.
Please.