Numb
Every day my days get colder and colder
I never see myself being older
No matter how hard I try I can’t believe people love me
You all say it will get better but there’s no guarantee
The only time I feel alive is when I cut
As the blood runs I close my eyes shut
The tears start to fall
Thinking over and over that I won’t be any good at all
You will never know how this feels
Trying hard not to skip any meals
Every night I hope this is my last breath
You all tell me to stop thinking about my death
Do you know how hard it is to deal with this?
It’s like a never ending abyss
You try to crawl and crawl to the top
But then you mess up once then you drop
Some people might think this is a stage
But I will always have this pain even in the grave
This help will never work
These pills you give me is going to make me berserk
My pain has only gotten worse and worse
 This pain is like a curse
Somebody has cause you some of your scars
Wishing you were a part of the stars
It seems like music is the only thing that understands you
It knows the things you have been through
People say past is the past
But those memories will always last
You promise yourself this is your last cut
You say this is it well somewhat
This numbness will always have you
Once you have this you’re now screwed
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Nice, Thanks for sharing
Regards & Love
WILLIAMSJI
thank you :)
My vote & My applause
Regards
WILLIAMSJI MAVELI
Rebecca,
Your ability to write the thoughts, of the character in your poems so well, is amazing and in your poems, the character states she is in search of loneliness and despair and plain old not wanting to be alive, yet in all actuality, her reason for her expellion of the notice of dramatic harm to be inflicted on herself, is her own means and manner, of crying out for help, more than enjoying the pain, being inflicted on herself...Lady you are wonderful at what you do and we would love to see much more, including the poems, of all the things, that you hold dear to your heart....For someone to write as good as you do, you have a whole lot of individuals on this site, hungry for the "full you," in all of your writings, including the things in this world, that places a smile on your face and dear to your heart....Don't let the poem, be the voice and thoughts, of the poetess ..
Take Care,
Jim Â
Rebecca
You poetry is full of emotion, and I sense a great sadness, but you have a talent... You can write what you feel,
Congratulations on your nomination!
Keep writing, stay strong
Maddison x
Wonderful words of encouragement Maddison....
Jim
Rebecca, the character in your poem, is capable of tremendous love. As I wrote once a long time ago, "And now I see the sun, because I saw the night, now I am somebody else's star, because though they feel unlovable, my love can reach so far, past the abyss and over the chasm, I can love anyone, because I can love my own reflection."
This is a wonderful piece of poetry John, full of the truest of soul felt meanings..Very much inspiring.....
Jim
I'm reading all of your poems right now. Like, literally, one by one. I'm so rooting for you. Hugs and love from Texas :)
Very well conveyed John..
Jim
This is such a sad piece but it also shows your true strength sweety as it takes courage to write with such heartbreaking honesty, and you have that courage in bucket loads and you are still so young honey, please realise that you have so much to live for and there really are a lot of people out there and on this site that are sending you so much love, you really don`t have to physically meet someone to show them love, you really are getting it from all of us here. You say music understands you! well poetry is the music of the soul and you are so talented at poetry therefore you have the strength of music in you, and your love of music and poetry is a positive thing, so you are gradually getting through this awfull pain you are in. I would never patronize you by saying this is just a faze you are going through but believe us all, you will get through this. Keep writing as we all like to see your progress and you really are progressing well with each poem that you write, they show that you are really thinking about yourself and you know that you want help and that in itself takes great strength to realise and please know that there is help here for you. I`m sending you much love, George xx
This is such a sad piece but it also shows your true strength sweety as it takes courage to write with such heartbreaking honesty, and you have that courage in bucket loads and you are still so young honey, please realise that you have so much to live for and there really are a lot of people out there and on this site that are sending you so much love, you really don`t have to physically meet someone to show them love, you really are getting it from all of us here. You say music understands you! well poetry is the music of the soul and you are so talented at poetry therefore you have the strength of music in you, and your love of music and poetry is a positive thing, so you are gradually getting through this awfull pain you are in. I would never patronize you by saying this is just a faze you are going through but believe us all, you will get through this. Keep writing as we all like to see your progress and you really are progressing well with each poem that you write, they show that you are really thinking about yourself and you know that you want help and that in itself takes great strength to realise and please know that there is help here for you. I`m sending you much love, George xx