Old Poetry
I recently found some of my writing from at least ten years ago. I thought I would share my younger self with you.
My cheeks become the bed of a stream
Watching it all fall apart at the seams
My words can't even begin to describe
The present turmoil I feel inside
Can I put my faith again in the unseen?
What if the grass on the other side isn't green?
Should I trust my head and heart as a team?
What if my life plans will stay a dream?
How can I watch as I continue to bleed,
Every cell in my body overgrown by this weed
That I let grow inside and nurtured from a seed
Rooted in situation by my own selfish greed
Using my hate, lust, anger and pain to feed
My heart aches, soul breaks, brain tells me I need
To cut the bullshit out or I will never succeed
In life or love, for light and truth I beg for, I plead
For my mind, my essence, my love to be freed
From this agony I am in, I always disagreed
When people put me down, led me to believe
I deserve pain, jealousy, to be deceived
That the happiness I crave can't be conceived
When I see the light that I won't feel relieved
They all wanted me to think that more
Than what I've got, they were so sure
I was worth less, serve less purpose than shit on the floor
Although their words hurt and penetrate my core
I still hoped for better, for something to show me life before
May of broken my soul but had reason, would lead me to soar
Because I wasn't built to sit still, made to explore
Make my own mistakes and choices, however poor
Life is for living, should never become a chore
Nor should you let true love walk out the door
Maybe in this life, maybe in my next one
I can decide when enough's enough, when I am done
Realise the world I'm carrying on my shoulders weighs a ton
Accept destiny dealt the cards and has already won
Because I do not control nor do I create
What lies ahead for me to love or hate
I suck at making decisions, no debate
But I will learn and grow at my own say and rate
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Comments
As you say life is for living and decisions,, be they good or bad need to be made.
That's life and for everyone to learn from, move on and hopefully grow.
Melancholy in a few places but inspiring in many others and ending on hope, a good thing.
Perhaps the best of things to inspire others.
Loved reading this and thank for finally sharing after 10 long years.
Take care Shelley, enjoy life and its poetry too.
I really appreciate everyone that take the time to read and comment. It was lovely and healing to share my old stuff on here, it was good to see how far ive come from then and interesting to find out I wasnt as negative as I thought I was. Even in my sadness, hope and positivity was at my core, was my intention for writing.
Hope youve had a great day! Enjoying all life has to offer