Why Now

 
I can't ignore the beating drums in my heart

It's like you and I have never been apart

I did find a way to suppress this desire to connect

But now, once again, I am struggling to deflect

I don't know what has happened to reignite the flame

Don't know how to stop my mind from thinking of your name

It is peppered with fear as I never had control

And I can sense the longing deep within my soul

I've gained a lot of perspective in the years gone by

I no longer feel the pain, anger or the need to cry

Right now though the frustration is bubbling inside 

I don't want to explode nor do I want to hide

I remember how your eyes would penetrate mine

How one look from you could stop the hands of time

Taking every ounce of power to hold myself back

I don't want to take you or I off our fated track

I have so much to say, so many questions to ask

So much to share with you now I've taken off my mask