On the verge

It's when I'm away that I feel so far gone 
I lie awake

 

 and it's like everything just feels so wrong 

 

And in my bed

 

 I stay in my head  

 

Remembering all the things you said 

 

and it's like I bleed till I'm dead 

 

But believe somehow I'm still alive.....

 

Silently dying inside 

 

I cry 

 

but no one hears my pain  

 

In the dead of the night wondering why oh why  

 

As tears fall down my face 

 

like giant drops of rain 

 

you ever cry so quite

 

 yeah you God damn right 

 

that's when you know you'll never be the same  

 

It just takes your breath away 

 

with nothing left to say 

 

like that shit changes everything And there ain't no way you will ever be you again 

 

Ain't no fucking way you will ever forget 

 

The feeling of emptiness  

 

The loneliness 

 

that comes with that shit

 

And there's nothing worse  

 

Than when you just need a friend 

 

But it's just you alone in the silence  

 

With your head in your hands 

 

It's that kinda hurt that you can never begin to amend 

 

And then in the end 

 

You're left with a feeling of such loss 

 

It's such chaos 

 

The cost it cost 

 

The thoughts you thought 

 

That you fought and fought 

 

To try and not think 

 

And now they just don't seem to go away

 

It just becomes to much to take 

 

Trying not to break 

 

And you hate that you feel this way 

 

Saying the things you say 

 

Trying to convince yourself you'll be ok 

 

But inside you know thats a lie 

 

And it's deep in your core where you felt that piece of you die

 

So you know you ain't gonna be all fucking right 

 

And so you just sit there 

 

so fucking quite as you cry 

 

Yeah your'e God damn right 

 

That's why I say that shit changes everything  

 

ain't no way youll ever be the same 

 

Just some other version of you that's gone on now 

 

That shits insane 

 

just trying to find a way to move on somehow 

 

And like I say there's just nothing left to say 

 

You don't know what to think 

 

And with everything standing in the way 

 

You're left to try to figure it all out 

 

It's Just like wow 

 

I mean damn 

 

Like What the fuck 

 

How'd everything become so fucked up

 

And it's dumb cause in the end you just become so numb 

 

Just some other version of who it made you become 

 

But what's done is done 

 

So you just sit quietly in the silence cause you know it can never be un-done

 

And nothing you can do will make it any less fucked up

 

So you just sit there oh just so quitly crying 

 

Yeah and you're dying 

 

With your head down and your hands up 

 

Like fuck I just give up 

 

And there's no describing how that shit feels 

 

Except it just feels fucked 

 

To feel how that feels  

 

When you feel that shit deep in your core 

 

It feels like it's just to much 

 

Yeah it feels like nothing you have ever felt before 

 

It just feels so cold 

 

Like you know 

 

You'll never feel nothing any more

 

Cause that shit hit deep in your soul

 

Yeah it hurt down to the core 

 

And your heart it breaks like broken bones 

 

And you shiver as you shake 

 

As you're lying on the floor

 

 

 

 

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