Once and Now

Once I thought of you
As human, charming and nice.
Who had made me smile

Now I think of you
Every waking moment
You still make me smile.

But I know I must
Stop. For you have disappeared.
Gone forever now.

And I try so hared
I cannot replace you
Like you did of me.

It's easy for you
For you've never thought of me
Like I do of you.

I've written a lot
A thousand words in black ink
which you'll never read.

And who knew so much
As two words left unspoken
Would leave me stuck here.

You won't ever know
You think of her a lot; she
Who was cold to me.

They won't ever know
How many times I have cried to
Those Taylor Swift songs.

They won't ever know
And understand that age is
But stated digits

They will laugh at me
When I attempt to find the
Wind to your hearing

I do not know
If I'll see of you again
But you will not care

I hope though, a lot
This is like how this poem is: 
Unfinished.